Long service

Me in Rome September 2010

 In just over a month I'm going on long service leave. And in a twist  that is surprising for me/any one who knows me, we're not using that time to travel. My husband and I have been to around 30 countries together and the kids have been to 7. I'm trying to keep Immy's country count above her age. 

I had thought that my long service would be used to visit Ri's father in France, but I think Archie is a year or two away from being ready to go to Europe (and not make our lives miserable). 

I know that I don't have to take my leave, but I feel as though I'm at a turning point and I need to focus on my research for a few months.  Will I miss my clinical role too much? Or can I leave it behind? I honestly don't know. 

I'm just recovering from another episode of imposter syndrome, I worry that if I leave my clinical job, that all I'll have left is that feeling that I'm in over my head. On the other side of that coin, for what equates to one day a week of pay, my clinical job takes quite a bit of energy (I find myself thinking about my patients a lot). 

I've got too many balls in the air and something has got to give. So I'm going on leave.